I’m supposed to be graduating in may and I have no idea what I’m going to do. That’s normal, I just feel like I’ve failed so much already and closed a lot of doors I need open. I have no money, my grades suck, and jobless. Sometimes I think about the decisions I’ve made and I get so uncomfortable. I’m sure that’s just a problem with acceptance or something. I look at some people from high school and they all seem to be doing big things. I don’t really do anything. I wish I was motivated to do something, I wish I wanted to learn more and be a scientist and stuff. Unfortunately, watching tv and eating junk food while cuddling with my boyfriend makes me happy. I want to play with kittens and puppies and feed cows, i don’t want to be a doctor or some scientist. I want to change the world…but not really. I’m just blabbering on.
You know what’s weird? Hearing about how people become famous from their blogs. Occasionally I come across these weird facebook pages and it’s like some weird underground culture (underground cause I don’t see how it could be well known) and these people are well known from blogs. I’m so…confused. Like…what do you do? Smoke cigarettes all day and dress like you want people to know you thrift shop? I’m judgmental sometimes. I don’t know, I guess I’m just confused because I’ve been watching their videos for over an hour now and wonder what’s so interesting about this? Take me away from the computer.